Yes, this is a late arrival…

Hai, kore wa chichaku…

はい これ わ 遅着 (ちちゃく)

Okay Blogger side note: This was written LATE Friday morning at work and I’ve just remembered now to upload it so yeah, keep that in mind folks…

Well, this is feeling slightly abnormal in the sense that at one point it was a habit to write daily and now I can barely manage a simple blog entry to keep anyone who thinks I’m interesting updated with my "interesting" life...

It's been well over a month since I’ve written anything in this, my little corner in cyberspace. and surely a lot has happened, but frankly, not nearly enough I would say.

I’m still looking for an apartment, the hotel's still on strike, I’m still broke (ha, finding an apartment while broke...) still obsessing with anything Japanese, and yes I’m still me.

I've been both mad and stressed a lot lately what with work and issues at home, which leads to my ever faithful eye twitch to return in full force, for my shoulders and neck to begin to ache and my back to feel tied in knots. I'm going to court *again?* on Monday, this time here at home and *yay!* it's just as an audience member!

And through it all, all this crap that I must deal with, I have 3 saving graces that are a constant now in my life...

1-- (don't laugh, it works!) Music and videos from Morning Musume, YUI, PGSM and Hello! Project. These few small things, though all Japanese and I am nowhere near being able to FULLY understand everything said *YET!* it all somehow gives me a sense of peace, and allows me to laugh a bit whenever I feel the tears are close. Just listening to Joshi Kashimashi Monogatari or Mr. Moonlight ~ Ai no Big Band by Morning Musume puts an automatic smile on my face, it's completely infectious! And to be able to close my eyes and escape with Tomorrow's Way or It's Happy Line by YUI is a much needed relief.

I can honestly say that this is all as much a priority in my life now as any "material" thing can be.

2-- The obvious I guess would be my always happy to see me *even when I’ve gotten mad at her for barking so much!* Angel. 8 years old already, (that means my mother's been away now for over 8 years...God time races forward...I feel so old now.)

3-- *Though she is number one on so many levels* My sister. My beloved Kayla. I don't know what I'd do without her sometimes. She's an ear waiting to listen, a joke waiting to be told, a dance waiting to be "revolution"ized, a walk waiting to be taken, a laugh waiting to be shared, and a smile waiting to light up my day. Sappy isn't it? yeah, yeah, I know... sentimental fool sometimes, but she is the number one most important thing in my life. She's what keeps me grounded, what keeps me in this sometimes hellish town. If only I could be half the sister she deserves.

Ahh...it feels good to ramble a bit, I’ve missed it really. I'll have to remember how this feels, because who really knows when my next update will come! We'll see though, maybe I’ll pencil some blogging in next week, or when I'm off on the weekend (woo weekend!!!).

So with that said here ends today's ramblings.

Till the next one!